October 7, 2010

Understanding

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding." ~Proverbs 3:5

This scripture was on my mind last night as I lay in bed about to fall asleep.
Important words for me to remember,
and valuable council I had forgotten to follow this past week.

I have recently been going to the Lord with a few personal things in my life.  
After prayer and reflection came comfort and promptings that I should do certain things and pursue certain paths.
So I followed those answers to prayer
with a reassuring feeling that they were the right things to do, 
that they would bring about good things,
that if I followed the Lord, everything would turn out okay.
I supposed the test was for me to follow what I felt the Lord wanted me to do,
but I was wrong. 
The test came when things began to not go as I had hoped/thought that they would.
I became confused and started doubting the Lord.
I thought to myself, "I did what I thought I should do and things aren't working out!  Why did He lead me in this direction!?"
And then this scripture came to my mind: "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding."
 I have been leaning unto my own understanding.  
I have been following those promptings with the expectation of seeing immediate results that I want or that I think I need.
 Why do I repeat this pattern in my life of thinking that I know what should happen, that I know what I need, and that I know what is best when I have such a limited understanding of His bigger plan for me?? 
While I can only see a few brush strokes at a time, 
He can see the whole canvas.
I need to stop trying to interpret what I think should come from following Him, and begin to trust in Him more. 
After last night, I started to see a few more brush strokes come together and realized that: oh, yes, the Lord does know what He is doing after all!
 I need to let go of my limited understanding and rely on His omniscient one.
And I have the feeling that life will afford me plenty more opportunities to work on this principle. :)


1 comment:

Claire Christensen said...

So true Holly and the longer you live the more you see the hand of the Lord in your life! Trusting in Him is sometimes the hardest thing we have to do and being patient for the answers! But when we live our life according to His will, I have found that life is so much better and I am so much happier because I am at peace!

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