"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding." ~Proverbs 3:5
This scripture was on my mind last night as I lay in bed about to fall asleep.
Important words for me to remember,
and valuable council I had forgotten to follow this past week.
I have recently been going to the Lord with a few personal things in my life.
After prayer and reflection came comfort and promptings that I should do certain things and pursue certain paths.
So I followed those answers to prayer
with a reassuring feeling that they were the right things to do,
that they would bring about good things,
that if I followed the Lord, everything would turn out okay.
I supposed the test was for me to follow what I felt the Lord wanted me to do,
but I was wrong.
The test came when things began to not go as I had hoped/thought that they would.
I became confused and started doubting the Lord.
I thought to myself, "I did what I thought I should do and things aren't working out! Why did He lead me in this direction!?"
And then this scripture came to my mind: "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding."
I have been leaning unto my own understanding.
I have been following those promptings with the expectation of seeing immediate results that I want or that I think I need.
Why do I repeat this pattern in my life of thinking that I know what should happen, that I know what I need, and that I know what is best when I have such a limited understanding of His bigger plan for me??
While I can only see a few brush strokes at a time,
He can see the whole canvas.
I need to stop trying to interpret what I think should come from following Him, and begin to trust in Him more.
After last night, I started to see a few more brush strokes come together and realized that: oh, yes, the Lord does know what He is doing after all!
I need to let go of my limited understanding and rely on His omniscient one.
And I have the feeling that life will afford me plenty more opportunities to work on this principle. :)