October 7, 2011

Strengthened and Supported when we need it

There were a few times during Garrett's schooling when people would ask me how we managed to get by financially.
I would often tell them about all my frugal habits: eating lots of homemade whole wheat bread, making my own cleaning solutions and laundry detergents, having cheap cell phones with zero texting or picture-taking capabilities, sewing Kenadie jammies out of my old shirts, etc. 
But who am I kidding!?  I mean sure, being a penny pincher certainly helped, but when it really comes down to it, I believe that the Lord strengthened and supported our family and our needs during Garrett's schooling.  That is truly how we "lived off so little".  When I crunch the numbers, there is no other explanation for the "how" of certain things other than this: my Heavenly Father knows me, loves me, and takes care of me. 

I probably should have remembered this principle a lot more this past week.....
What a week! 
We moved into our cutie-patootie house which ended up being very dirty and in need of new paint in some of the rooms.  So after long days of work, Garret and I have been spending all evening (and the wee hours of the morning) chipping away at the cleaning and painting.
And then I had an overwhelming, crummy day at work today.  Nothing major, but it just brought on the waterworks during my drive home and I couldn't help but think:
Am I really leaving my babies all day to have stinky days like this!?  How can I possibly be a focused, good nurse with an overwhelming job and then come home and be a focused, good mom and wife?  How is my absence at home going to affect my girls and my husband?  How am I supposed to create an organized, loving atmosphere in my home?
How am I going to do it?

Well, I have no clue. 
I can't logically come up with the "how".
 Perhaps the situation I find myself in now is just another opportunity for me to see the Lord work miracles in my life and remind me that as long as I'm doing what I can, he'll make up for the rest.  
Living the poor college student life may not have seemed ideal to others; being a mom who works full-time certainly doesn't seem ideal to me.
But the Lord figured out the "how" of things back then, so all that's left to do is for me to see how he'll create the "how" now, because I know He will.
He always does.
 And for that knowledge, I am so grateful.


The Wilson Family said...

Oh Holly, I have lived this life as well. It is very very hard to be a working mommy, and to be poor students........you are amazing :o)

Holly June said...

I've actually thought about you A LOT lately, Heather! I don't think you can really understand how hard it is until you go through it, and I have oodles of respect for you having to work full time! Good thing we have awesome careers, huh? :)

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