Detox: Day 2

30 hours into my detox/cleanse/this-better-help-make-me-feel-better

and how do I feel?

I'm hungry.  Really hungry.

I had to throw away half of a chocolate applesauce cake that I made the other day because

no refined sugars, no white flour, no blah blah blah

for a whole month! 

This is not going to be easy.

I think I wanted to cry as I threw the cake in the garbage.

And then as I walked past the garbage last night

I swear that I heard the cake say,

"Holly, eat me!  Please.  I'm so yummy, and moist, and chocolatey, and delicious!"

And for a moment I seriously considered reaching in and devouring that chocolate cake that was sitting in my garbage can.  Next to a poopy diaper.

How do women who diet DO this!?

It's hard.  

And just to reassure everyone, I'm n-o-t doing this to lose weight, or look hot, or have shiny hair, or get rid of cellulite.

I just want to feel better. 

And I hope this works.

Because right now, I'm having a little battle-of-will trying to stick to this thing (and it's day 2! bah ha!)

Through vegetables and my health supplements I'm getting enough calories (not the usual 2,000+ that I KNOW I usually get a day, but enough that it should sustain me). 

But I still feel like I'm lacking in the energy dept

and I'm still hungry.

I think I'm just realizing how many of my calories actually HAVE come from quick energy sources: cereal, toast, fruit, granola bars, hot chocolate (heehee), etc.

And though I THOUGHT I ate enough vegetables before

I was wrong.  

Now that's all I eat for the next 6 days. 

It's a little hard.  

But although I really wanted a big, juicy burger for dinner last night

I did have a delicious meal by chopping up this colorful concoction:

spinach, zucchini, peppers, cilantro, 2 kinds of kale, greens beans, and onions.

I sauteed it all in coconut oil (very yummy), added some turmeric and salt, and Ba Ba Da Ba!

Dinner!

It was actually really tasty

and I felt like, "Maybe I can do this for a week!"

(I must admit, I wished that some marinated chicken and rice could have been served with the vegetables.  Have I mentioned that this is hard?)

Let me say, this is only something I would ever do for a very short period of time (like for this cleanse), so please don't think I'm going all granola-y on you or that I'm just plain nuts.....but if you do, that's okay, because I half think I'm nuts, too.

Nuts? Nuts!  I would like some nuts right now.  Almonds to be specific.

Or some chocolate covered almonds. Or some chocolate covered almonds in chocolate ice cream, or some why-do-I-torture-myself-with-food-fantasies.  Yes, that sounds nice.

So as of right now:

Difficult.

Hungry.

Yummy veggies.

Yucky shake supplements.

Talking chocolate cake next to poopy diaper. 

Nuts.

Almonds.

Ice cream.

Got it?

Good.